The name is V!Ce...

Final DesTinat!on

2009-05-14T14:20:00.000-07:00

Beirut.

No matter how I imagine our final destination.. it always goes back to Beirut.

.... So we leave to study abroad.. met, then got together... where to go?

Beirut.

Or... say we marry... and after Bahrain's Crimson dream is achieved, what shall we do?

go to Beirut, of course!

Soliduier... <3

Everyday we would wake up to have coffee in one of the many cafes sometime nearing sunset..

where the sun is still clear enough to have me wearing my Ray Bans!

... We would go buy books by every week.. then neglect them because we got caught up with our own connotations~

In dawns where we haven't slept yet- we tackle those books for our money's worth...

my slims on one side... your lights's on the other~

... our balcony over looks the pier.

..Smokes.

Politics.

The Sea.

The breeze...

"NasSam 3alaina el.hawaa... mn mfraa2 el.waadi"

aaakkh~ Beirut <3

"Lii Bayroot..."

Picture Perfect~

2009-05-14T13:15:00.000-07:00

It is White.. with a clear frontage of two big windows and a dark wooden door.
The drive through is dim.. a tiny source of light is hanging somewhere on the wooden door, where if you look closer.. you can almost see the inside of an off-white/creamie setting.
Back to the Windows... which to me are the appeal; Natures hand through tree vines made their way to both edges of the separated windows. Hugging each from a different corner. Pefectly meshing the colors of green, white and hints of faded yellow/brown leafs...
There is no sign of a fence... the territory is perfectly marked by the front lawn that stretched all the way to the sandy edge of the drive through.
between the grassy front is a brick plated pathway, again.. its is perfectly marked by Amadillo side lights.

"Twice remodeled~"
"really?!.. uh- is that a Blue room??"
"9alatnaa.."
"woah.. I Envy"

There in Nuzha, stands our own portrait of the "All White American Dream"

Blue Fire

2008-10-08T13:52:00.000-07:00

Blue Fire

Her posture sitting down made her look smaller than usual. Almost curled between big nylon pillows, her head was slanted, eyes not gazing at anything in particular. She roamed the quiet empty space in her blank mind. How long has it been? She can’t seem to recall much. She flexes her tiny fingers to realize the firm hold on her Rosary beads. She moved her hands, eyes fixated on a dimension unknown. Her palms traced the length of the beads. The sensitive tips of her fingers distinguished the curves and the engravings on each tiny rock.

She was looking for it. Although she knows where it is by heart, she kept the thrill of anticipating the feel. Perfectly rounded, it remained. Moving her fingers all around it, consuming her blank thoughts with the protruding carvings. Tracing her pinky nail in between the curvy maze. Drawing, once again, the perfected image of the Azure red-lined bead.

She trailed the fiery red line one last time. Depicting that heart like shape, again. She closed her eyes that now looked down at the Rosary at hand. Crumbling it with a tight fist, she brought it close to her sniffing nose… A long inhale.

- Lyra…!

Her name whispered by a distant figure. Her eyes slowly opened to the florescent light reflecting over her metallic gaze.
- It’s time..-- Sighing, she lays back into the puffy, now cold, nylon pillows.

- This will only sting for a bit

She always hated needles. Although told to relax and breathe, her grip tightened over the Rosary. Knowing well that in a few moments the feel will disappear. But… it’s ok. After all, the next time her eyes open, she can see the blue fire once again.

BoreKinGDom ElonGaTed..!!

2008-09-28T14:39:00.000-07:00

This is Long...
Waaayy tooo LOOOOONNnnngg

Strrreeeeetched OUT Y_Y...

ANY minute now you know it's gonna go *SNAAPP*

I MISS COLLEGE..
I WANT TO BURRIED IN THE BOOKS

I WANT THOSE BRAIN FUCKIN ACTIVITIES..

NASTY PROFFESSORS...
GOSSIP.. GOSSIP... GOOOOSSSIIIIIPP ^O^

ARrrggh.. LIKE NOW !!!

* WAAAHHH!!! T_T *
I am bored *sniff, sniff*

In Regards to Citizen Mayhem,

2008-09-23T14:13:00.000-07:00

I was told to be cautious.. I was always told to walk away if needs be. I was always told to be the same, follow those who know best and you will be saved...

saved? from what?!

I have been saught after, I have been targeted by people of no certain connection... I have been bad-mouthed, back stabbed and hated...

Of all this, I have been told.

Yet I remain..

I remain unharmed.. nonchalant... confident... and most of all Inspired.

Inspired..

To not ever be (The Other)... To hold my Ground.. To Stand up for Me, Myself and I.

-A Junkie, and I never got my High that people have been basking in.
-A Party Animal in the mask of the Antisocialist... lucky Bastards know best, don't they?
-A Loner, The Friendless... Oh how I pitty Thee.

I am flattered, Truely.
Flattered to know that you, Citizen Mayhem, have made me the all binding Center of your dysfuctionaly Blunt Living. I am honored to be the Star highlighting your Murky existence.

010 Haters should get this; Along side Course Lines* that speak for themselves (: ...

Hatred fuels my blood

I'll burn you down (You can't help me)

Now I can understand

It's sorrow that feeds your lies

---

You will be shown How I've become....

Indestructible

Determination that is incorruptible

From the other side A terror to behold

Annihilation will be unavoidable

Every broken enemy will know

That their opponent had to be invincible

Take a last look around while you’re alive

I'm...

Indestructible

* Course Lines:
Burn it Down: A7X
Indestructible: Disturbed

A World's Lose; En'na Le'Llah, Wa En'na Elaihe Raji3on.

2008-09-08T07:24:00.000-07:00

3 Ramathan 1429/ 3 September 2008;

Our World lost a very special person this day...

A person who would have made this Life, without a doubt.. a Better Place.

Maryam (Rosemery) Santizo

Rest in Peace..

Amphibian Arts

2008-09-07T18:10:00.000-07:00

ISN'T IT THE MOST ADORABLE THING EVER?!!
How on earth could I have missed such a thing?!..
I know they have been out for CENTURIES..

LADIES AND GENTELMEN... MAY I HAVE YOUR ATTENTION PLEEEAASEE: <-- Guess the song ;pP~

*I am so getting this for our Winter.. No drought Nor rainless days are going to STOP ME.

Brilliance... Simply, Captivating.

2008-09-05T16:55:00.000-07:00

Me and my budy.. you remmeber him, Archer.. Archie man!!...
sigh,
Bow n Arrow.. yea, yea.
well, it has been AGES since we last spoke..
I can only Imagine WHY T_T;
Either way.. so we were talking.. and immediately our topic went to the best selling saga at the time:
"Stephenie Meyer's- Twilight"

Reader, IF you are UNFAMILIAR with it, SHAME AND DOOM ON YOU...
YOU CALL YOURSELF A LITERATI.. HUH.. HUH??

It is by far one of the most captivating, brilliant and entertaining pieces of work.
I have not read in years... I stopped reading for God only knows how long... only recently that I got back on track... and I got HOOKED.. I couldn't let it down.
If you're looking for somthing that will hold your interest for hours and dulls your senses for days... this is the saga for you!
Maybe because me and by budy are in love with the theme of mythical creatures truely existing among us.. no shame in that, the book dipicts the life of such creatures far from the Hollywood lens, making it utterly believable. Stretching the truth to its limits, yet not ever crossing the line of Cliche.

Yes, I Believe.

This saga will take you as far as your imagination could get you... and Beyond.

Evil Wordpress* >_<

2008-08-28T12:57:00.000-07:00

The name echoed in my head...
Irritation was an understatment
It took them all away.. They left Me behind..
I have to say I am at lost here;
who's to blame??
the Indifference in my friends' leaving.. or simply an Advanced blogging website*??

OH LOST SOULS, WHERE ART THOU??

Organized, they said..
A lot more Efficient >pP~

LIES... ALL LIES...
BRAINWASED.. ALL OF THEM

It is up to me... yes.. ME.. I SHALL BRING THEM BACK...

LOST SOULS, LOST NO MORE...
yes..
yeessssss...!!! *__*

HAHAHAA...
wait for me My LUVIES...
YOU ALL SHALL BE SAAVVEDD *Hysteria in motion*

*RUNS ACROSS THE UNIVERSE.. STARS AT SITE, A GRIN WORTH A 1000$*

I AM INVINCIBLE HAHA HA HAHAHA....... BWAHAHAHAHAAAA -cough,, cough-

ooh shi.. -cooouuughh- shiii -cough.. cough....-
*RUNS OFF TO BATHROOM...*
BLOOD... BLO.... -cough-
mus... must. get. t.. to. phoonnnne
*runs out. but slips over dirty undies.. falls back with broken ribs sticking out the chest*

uuh... -cough..-
cc...curse you... worr... d.pre..sss
*looks down at the stick figure ribs*
cam... rraah!!

The Comeback..!

2008-08-20T16:26:00.000-07:00

I was Hoping with a "BANG"...
unfortunatly... it Evaded me T_T
No!!..
I am not insane...
I was counting the seconds that held me back to that Country...
The air, drying out in my lungs as I kept it in as long as ever...
It was Heartbreaking.. I dared not look back *sigh*

Libon. You'll be Missed <33

Taking Back the Hours..

2008-07-15T12:43:00.000-07:00

With every meaning intended..

I am officially Hating mankind..

no more standing out

no more being your own

NO...

You live only to serve one purpose..

and that is..

being just like the rest... NO better, NO less

a Clone..

because no matter what.

the originality of which you evedently come from...

is the same one you're gonna end up with.. and just like others

6 feet below..

dirt.

Cruel Intentions <3

2008-07-07T12:06:00.000-07:00

The Weather... GREAT..
the Peaple.... you can't help but Love'em..
So cruel of me, saying all of these things while you people... my people, are in summer Hell :D <-- i care

Keep in mind, Dear ones... I am Missing you all oh so Terribly :')
Which is why I took time to write this down and explain the wonderful time I am having, which is the source keeping me away from you... my Fellow Luvies <3

With this...
I leave you to dwell in your horrid thoughts of up-coming Exams
and other Mad, Brain-fucking activities

.... Over & Out xx

An Attribute... Emadori <3

2008-06-24T06:25:00.000-07:00

Dare the Dweller

Have you heard?
The news is big…

Is it really?? Would my ears be fit?

Ears! Haa!... a pair won't do

Is it harsh??.. Whisper it..
All in one breathe now.. Come on, please!

What??! No.. Your ears will bleed
It's a secret just for two..
I already have my pair.. What have you?!

Your pair?? What "Other" is there? Come on now
I Am your Friend..

Mark this Date, Today was Great
A memory for the taking

Quit teasing me so.. you're no fun!

Sorry love, my lips are sealed on this one
"to the Grave" I said

Three is not a crowd..
It stands for delightful things..
Say: Ménage a'Trois?!

Hmm, delightful indeed..
But my secret is bigger than that..
But wait..? how did you…

.. know?!..
Hahaha… how could I not?
I dwell within. Ooh so deep!

Aah.. In that case, then listen well..
I am dieing to tell a soul
….
…….
…
………………
…… …..
And then……..
… Yes, just us two……
…………….
………………….
… …. ……….

OH BLOODY HELL!!..
YOU DIDN'T!

Yes we did..

But how..?

I just told you.

Whe…!

I just told you.

And where was….

Snoozing!! Deep within hahaa!!
I warned you, a secret not for the weakest of heart
Contain yourself, you'll cause me a headache!

I just can't…

Believe?!...
Yes, yes as if I were in a haze!
But I felt it.. it was great…
We were..

Soul mates..

No.. don't Kill this
Our bond is stronger..
soul mates is a Cliché

so..

so hush you vile thing dwelling
within the cores of me..
I did what I did..
BWAHAHAHAA…
YEA!!..
So hate me :pP~

Hypocritical Fuckopracy >_< !!

2008-06-15T06:29:00.000-07:00

http://www.kuwaittimes.net/read_news.php?newsid=OTM1NTIxNjEy ^^read this

Feast your eyes on our country's Downfall...
wain g3deeen??...
Last I checked, Islam was never by forcing people into things.. where God has given us the ability to think for ourselves, we do what we have to when we believe the time is right..

"Wa enama al'a3mal B.niyaat"

Fra'6an it isn't in my inttention to wear the veil now, and u fuckers force it on me, think you are doing good towards God's will??.... hell no.

Ana at7ajab 7ag Allah... mo 3shan one of you horny fucks having a hard time controling his Testosterone... if you are so much into your own religious self-consciousness then you should know better than to "at5izz ib 5alg Allah" and you learn to "eT'3e'6 el.Ba9ar".

Warida ^__^...

2008-06-08T07:49:00.000-07:00

..... I finished Finals..!!

>.>

<.<

.. YAAAY *WOOT WOOT*..... uuh, here's a video ^^

... Night Vision uncensored

2008-05-28T13:02:00.000-07:00

Don't ask... it's one of those things I have NO CONTROL over... I wish I did though, it was shit disturbing when I realized I woke up with that FUGLY MUG of his on my mind...

Sigh.. I give you my night vision... Staring: WORD VOMIT~~ *DANDAN DAAAAAAN*

W.V. - wordvomitwordvomit....

MOI - .....?!

W.V. - wordvomit.... wordvomitwordvomitwordvomit...!!?!

MOI - wtf...? noo.. go away... get out

W.V. - woorrrdvvooommmittt..... wordvomit

MOI - I can hurt you, why are you here anyway?

W.V. - wordvomit... wordvomitwordvomit T_T...

MOI - ok stop...

W.V. - WORDVOMITWORDVOMITWORDVOMIIIIITTTTEEEEEEE Y_Y

MOI - SHUT UP.... *gags the intruder* WHO SENT YOU... WHO. SENT. YOU?? SPEAK DAMN IT... SPEEEEAAAK

W.V. - ..... mmmmmmm

MOI - ooh... my bad!.. go on.. SPEAK!

W.V. - .......................................

MOI - any time now..

W.V. - .....WORDVOMIT

*KAAAPAAAWWWWW <-- punch sound effect*......

MOI - you're useless!

*curtain fall*

The Epitome of FUCK 010...

2008-05-26T14:02:00.000-07:00

I'm PMSing.... you have been warned~

Not only do I work my ass off and get shit for it... I HAVE TO REWRITE THE DAMN THING AND ADD COLORED PAPERS... colored... colo.... aaaauuuh!! on top of that I got him smiling at me and askin me the most idiotic question professors always come out with, as if the answer is just so phenomenal:

where have you been in class???

....... excuse you!... where have I be....!! DAMN IT, where the fuck do you think??? I sit two seats aways from your murky brown face, RIGHT THERE.... the fuckin room isn't big AT ALL, what kinda question is that?!!... where have I been.. hehe I'll tell you, I wait and hide behind the small dark corner to when you arrive and I scare the living fuck outta ya so you'd die and I get an fuckin A.. bwahahahahahaa!!!

get it... hahaha you, dead... bwahahahahaa!!!

yesterday bites >.< ...

This is the New Shit*

2008-05-24T06:17:00.000-07:00

Life... When time comes, you hope you can be ready to face the consequences you set ahead... You tend to turn a blind eye on the unknown part of life.. the obscure.. you never look beyond the gate of which you conceal yourself behind.. tragic? is it not?.... other times, you tend to calculate.. and assume the course of nature to your own accord.. living your life in a shell created by your own shallowness, and you believe it... in the end, it kills you... tragic, is it not??

babble, babble..

Pathetic.. weaklings, all of You.. such a waste life is on them! such a misfortune that chance chose them instead of others who are willing to stand out.. speak up... make a statement.. make a difference.. to Lead! You sit and wait.. deluding yourself into thinking chances are forever granted.. and waiting is for the better out come... tragic, is it not?

bitch, bitch..
rebel, rebel..

open your eyes... open your fucking minds.. breath liberty, breath in the wasted freedom.. it will all soon fade away without you ever realizing it... confining yourself to assumptions will take you nowhere.. following others in hope of originality will erase your existence... dwelling into the past life, and stopping to regret what could have been and what never was will forever hold you down, and you will stay as you are.. hateful, fragile and above all... abandoned.

party, party..
sex, sex, sex
don't forget the violence...

so... Dare be You?

Do you wann'it now??
This is the New Shit*

STOP! In the name of Mazaaj -__-

2008-05-14T06:06:00.000-07:00

I am a good citizen.. bs wain elli qadir?!.. i realized today that people do not deserve SHIT of respect!.. and on top of that.. it took one of our Law and Order civilians to prove so... oh the irony, ay?!

It's around 12;30'ish when I was on my way to Sultan Center in Salmiya.. being the only place open, in a former GAZZ area, at a time where the whole country is in "supposed" grief... yea, my rubber butt they are -__-!!...
On the road.. there was a cop.. I didn't pay any attention to him, or the fact that he was driving below 80... ok, maybe I did >_>... I figured he's doing one of his regular patrols... my exit to the street where Sultan Center was near.. and the cop was on the lane that I wanted..... I signaled that I was going in front of him and I did... and turned into the exit.. he followed and we stopped at a traffic light.. again, not that I looked into the matter.. I still thought it was the same rout his patrol is taking him...

P.S.- I NEVER SIGNAL WHEN MOVING ONTO OTHER LANES... it is out a respect, and not wanting to be pinned down by any charges those maniacs can come up with so i did..

... moving on... light goes green, and I go into the other street.. quickly, once again, I signaled that i was moving to turn to that small corner... proceeding, I got into the street where Sultan Center is.. and I kept going straight... 2'seconds into the street I heard him say something over the microphone, I did not pay attention to it because I knew it couldn't have meant me... and I wasn't doing anything wrong anyway + a car came between us, and I figured it was directed to that other person...

Nearing Sultan's entrace.. it was PACKED with cars and people.. so much for grief ! Idecided to park at the back side, noticing that this cop is still behind me, and quiet close.. I continued my way... upuntill I reached the narrow back street... I saw him proceed and bring his car to my side.. he ushered me to pull down my window, which I did..

- i5ty ana min misa3 ga3id agool yal jeep wagif, alla y'hadeech!!

- ok.. 5air?

- min misaa3..

- in zain.. fii shai??

*silence.. deep croked thoughts*

- la... slamtich!

*fuckin dyke!*

HONESTLY... could you have had a more lame excuse for stoping me... and the asshole walked away.. I knew what he wanted, and I was waiting on him to say it 3shan al3an 5ayraa!! but I guess he sensed that and backed off... MoFo >_<

Yes, people deserve SHIT of respect.. our cops are messed up.. m95ara, and that is an understatment!

... Blackout... >.<

R.I.P. <3

2008-05-13T13:43:00.000-07:00

May 13th. '08- Marks the lose of a great Leader..

and forever a Loving father to his people...

Alla yir7mk Baba Sa'ad ): <3

Pic'CHO'rial O_o

2008-05-13T08:54:00.000-07:00

Evenning...
I have no inttentions what so ever in learning or slightly identifying myself with the studies of Linguistics. here I present it to you.. clear and simple... if I already suck in speaking my own native language.. if I have long ago abandoned all hope in ever understanding the intricate structure of my rich native tongue.. I ask you this, what the fuck would make me want to spend 1 hour, 3 days aweek.. confined to a butt raping chair (yes, it is that much painful T_T)... listening to what I already, and mind i say, Perfectly speak and communicate by.. and having to take it apart with the NOT so pleasant view of a nun-looking.. old and mildly boring (oddly, she does have her funny moments)..... uh yea.. and mildly boring woman *sigh*..

Bottom line.. I find it pointless.. and since the MOE* is saying otherwise.. hear me out right you ignorant, senile pricks: I speak English just fine, as you can see... I am in no need of a professor(s). to tell me so.. especially one that has difficulty finding words of such simple and basic language.. let alone can't distinguish the proper pronunciation between (S)s and (Z)s... or any other word for that matter.

"-6affich.. hatha my friend twa sawa a presentation..

and he gave me a Pic"cho"rial magazine..... o0 gaa..

- huh... Pic' whaa?!

- Pic"CHO"rial....

- what the fuck... shino Pic"cho"rial?..

- y3ni... imigary magazine!.. u know.. Pictures

- BWAHAHHAHAAA... PICTORIAL YOU IDIOT.. hahahaa!!" Major: Lingistics- May 13th. '08.

1 : 0 - Litreture ^_~

*MOE have also included Science and Mathamatics courses into major sheets of abselut irrelevance >_<

2008-05-12T11:36:00.000-07:00

"It happened... except i never thought it would happen to me... me, of all people!!.. you don't understand, i used to see it all happen in movies.. such drama is so over rated.. i used to see it all so shallow and oh so mellow dramatic.. but it happened.. it happened to ME."

when your world comes crashing down, it is then where you get to discover what you are made of.

I started this for you... i am your voice, i am your mind... your Senseless Sanity.

~... and so it all begins